Welcome
Meditations of a Marked Man is a digital dance floor, a “work-in-progress” that interrogates the sexual commodification and deadly consequences of being a black man (still breathing) in America. Utilizing mixed media, found footage, and a variety of movement articulations, Meditations of a Marked Man, through the application of mimesis and glitching, specifically explores America's consumption, dismemberment, and desire for, and of, black male flesh.
In this meditative exploration, I center the personal. What I offer within this website are visual and sonic tremblings that explore the intersection of blackness and repetition, possession, death, flight, freedom, hunger, consumption, and the colonial gaze. What you will encounter is not an exhaustive account of my findings or interrogations, but rather a small conglomeration of ideas and experiments. While some of the meditations are beautiful, sensual, messy, alarming, funny, and unfinished, altogether, the work represents a pulsating and very much alive archive of embodied research and cathartic release.
I am attempting in this project to unpack my marked body by exploring the implications of the sexual and social death black men endure that often, if not always, precedes their physical death. What might it mean to keep breath inside black bodies? What might it mean to be free from sexual and predatory expectations or to reaffirm them in one's own liberation? How might one reclaim their body from the depths of social, political, sexual, and deadly captivity? And who is complicit (myself included)? These are the questions I am working through, and to which there are no easy answers. So, I invite you to peruse this website and explore a marked man's meditations.
Trigger Warning: This work uses profanity and includes visuals depicting sexual acts, violence, and nudity.